As per usual, it's my fault. Just like with Alex, I missed every red flag and now she's gone. She may not have directly addressed me, but I know I'm the target of this:
"Terin - This feeling isn't out of the ordinary. I knew it was coming and you could have prevented it. So I guess I'll apologize for your mistake." Timestamp ~1.30AM PST, September 20th, 2010
Yes, I knew. Yes I should have prevented it. Yes, I completely fucked up for the second time. And now there is that familiar pit inside my stomach, reminding me of it. I wish I hadn't walked away, I wish I'd have paid more attention, I wish I was still fucking there. But no, as usual, I dropped the ball and lost the game. And lost Terin.
Let's see what the future holds...
RIP Terin Alexander, September 20th, 2010
RIP Alex Savage, June 13th, 2010
"I wish that I could stop your tears from falling down, probably I'd make it worse. Maybe I wasn't always there, it doesn't mean I don't care... whatever it was." Sorry for Everything - Dead by April
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